Why do parents always speak not us...!

i really don't feel happy eventhough is holidays... its so unusual, i won't think much like that "mostly" but why? sometimes i feel like just get myself killed... i hate myself so much... its so meaningless for me to be a human but than i think twice... why do god creates humans and animals or other sorts of things... its because... every people have a defferent answers... during these few days i felt lonely and its getting worse... why do parents make their decision just for their own goods but not our choice...? its our lives not theirs i knowmost parents plan everything.. but we as their child have the right to say. why wouldn't they listen? sometimes i feel going to school is more likely than staying in the cosy house...*sighs* i really can't stand it anymore... why do parents always speak not us? i'm so depress right now... trying to cry but can't i don't know why. i think i'll go to sleep and wait for the night to pass.....

I'm back *obviously*lolx...

hello everyone i'm back in the blog again. alo..ha! i wanted to apologize for my absent, and hope for your forgivement. ^^ hmm... what should i say bout today, o ya i wanted to talk about my life that i've been through so long since i'd updated the last post. lolx this will take very long dears... so what do you guys think that i would do last few months... u'r right i've been on my journey of my life*yeepee*lolx actually i've been through alot of hard way and easy way... i don't really wanna talk about the hardway cuz it will help me to remember back the bad memories that i had before. im sorry that guys. the good times was i get to enjoy with my friends and my families for example i had a lot of fun yesterday 18th of April my school JLS camp. We invited a few school and they did enjoy this camp. i was the stationer that day , believe me the facilitators and stationer was serious tired but yet we enjoyed that tiredness happily...^^ and for my families was bcuz... erm i think there is no reason why we're happy among our families because families live in a happy and harmony day at every single time or second or even milisecond. even though u had hard times with ur families for example like u had an arguement with parents or siblings it dont really stay btween us for very long period cuz families is unbreakable... today i went to the PC Fair in PISA in that destination, the minute we arrived there was full of people even though is just early and yet it's still raining, haha the funniest part was when me and my mum wanted to take the umbrella, we were like snatching side by side haha so funny. o ya we bought a new laptop there too. *yawn* im a liltle bit sleepy now so guys i gotta go now.. catch u guys next time ... it'll be long though but its ok u guys will always be in my heart. take care.God Bless You.

Movie's...Breaker...

the absolute original girl is back...! phew... finally i get to breath for sometimes... about that thing... it don't really matters me anymore though... basically, is my choice, my options. Watch a really, absolute, creative, awesome, nice movie... woof... i really like that movie... watched it on 12th of december... guess wat movie was i talking about...?look on your left...i really like it....obviously there are almost the entire ppl who watched this movie would like it...alright actually wat i wanna write about is not about this...the actual topic was... BREAKER. i think *** wouldn't really care for ppl eventhough she said that. i don't really like *** attitude this year, this moment, the moment we had past so long... you have'd change...lot! Kindly, everytime i was being nice to you but you don't seem really appreciate it. i don't know what to say more now... i will just be there silently to see you change. tried to stop u but i've failed...

Confer on sumthing....

Sorry for the soooo late....i'm a bit lazy lately...haha.....o ya back to the main point of the title...i really nid to confer sumthing wif sumone, really! i thaught she was always congenial but mindly she wasn't...Now we really confessing or not or even abit of conflict....I DON'T KNOW! I just don't really mind these things happens...the most important thing is FRIENDSHIP there were more than 5 years we have been sticking together... currently i really don't know who ever that u wanna confess or wat izzit...?I cried and being sad, dissapointed, frustrated for so many days since that problem happened. i don't expect for any apology... bcuz i admit that there's my wrong there... i just wan everything be just normal and we can get back to our old mathod of being together....i really don't wan this thing to hold on anymore like that... i'm over tired... i really can't hold it on any longer... i just hope that even if u r angry at me i just won't mind i will always there... i really won't mind that u angry me... anytime u can talk to me k...take care...REMEMBER Anytime/Anywhere.

MY LIFE...............DEPRESSED

From today onwards i think my heart will starts bleeding....... and the thing is i dont know why i feel so pain not the pain that the people have diseases..... is that sumthing comes up and make me feels that. i really hope that someone would help me cure this......... i nid sumone who is really treats.........i think now i have 1 but i really hope that our relationship will never endsssss. im frustrated.....................depressed............................ why do i always feel things like that even in my dreams.........why!why!why!why! HELP ME SUMONE!

ExAmS........sTrEsS........

I had my exams since wednesday 6/8/08, i am trying my best to do the best, really i take it very serius on it. But apparently, i keep on reading and reading and reading, not even a word can get into my head AWFUL! THIS IS REALLY FREAKING ME OUT! im worried i had my geo exam today 7/8/08 the minute i finish my exam was at 11.10 that realy freaks me out i was very temsion at that moment and fortunately i was able to finish it. phew....... i am having my math, sejarah and IT exam tomorrow. math is the subject that im worring, i am really scared. god please bless me! i am really trying my best to do the best! go girl! haha lol silly me....... To be continued on the day when i finish my exam.

same here as on the main title.............

im really sad and depressed today and yesterday. i don't know why all those adults have to let their anger on us. hello! its damn scary. im really very upset i cried! if i did anything wrong i will personally go straight to you and apologize. but this is really very obvious, i didnt make any mistake, but why?!?! No longer..... i really can't stand or hold it anymore. i just want a piece place and no one could disturb me like Life's Of Innisfree! i had almost everyday depressed, i really don't understand why all parents like to let their anger on their child. in that case i think my parents really dont understand what i'm thinking and what i want. all i want was just warmness , and passion....