Why do parents always speak not us...!

i really don't feel happy eventhough is holidays... its so unusual, i won't think much like that "mostly" but why? sometimes i feel like just get myself killed... i hate myself so much... its so meaningless for me to be a human but than i think twice... why do god creates humans and animals or other sorts of things... its because... every people have a defferent answers... during these few days i felt lonely and its getting worse... why do parents make their decision just for their own goods but not our choice...? its our lives not theirs i knowmost parents plan everything.. but we as their child have the right to say. why wouldn't they listen? sometimes i feel going to school is more likely than staying in the cosy house...*sighs* i really can't stand it anymore... why do parents always speak not us? i'm so depress right now... trying to cry but can't i don't know why. i think i'll go to sleep and wait for the night to pass.....